Sunday, April 4, 2010

Solitude


*Yawns* It's 12:46am, Sunday morning. Finally made up my mind to not go to Church today.
I'm stark naked under my duvet. It's the way I like it.
I'm not bored, just lonely. But, "lonely" is just a word that represents a feeling of emptiness.
I don't feel empty. I'm not lonely then, perhaps, just alone.
Lately, that has being the norm.
I see a crowd of people everyday. I smile and nod at half of that crowd. A crowd is not company...but a collection of faces. It's like watching a movie on mute, heck, I'm in that movie. :o

I am overwhelmed with a feeling of loneliness. To suddenly be alone after a long period of togetherness and a feeling of being part of something is a very lonely feeling. I guess all break ups feel this way. Just that I'm not going through a break up...but of sudden realization that I hung on to nothing for so long...thinking it was something..and still I have nothing.

7 comments:

Nicosi said...

Wow, i know exactly what you mean. You write beautifully! x

Dazzle! said...

Thank you! :)

doll said...

well, that is still like brea-up..it will definitely pass too

Gee said...

ahhhh i really dint know u can write this good!
looks like afterall its not only economics in ur brain!
LOOOOOL

Dazzle! said...

@doll: Well, I guess u can call it that. Thanks, it will :)

@gee: lool..u're not serious..there's a compliment in there, somewhere..thanks

RocNaija said...

I got stuck at the "naked under my duvet" line..
I'll come back to finish it.. :)

Dazzle! said...

@Roc Hold that thought...will meet you right there ;)